So last night was a first. It was the first night that I have cried since coming to Ecuador. Last night was the final goodbye between my host brother, Santi, and all his friends. He had about fifteen of his closest friends over, and everyone just sat around and talked. But the inevitable eventually came, and one by one, Santi said goodbye to his friends. When everyone had left, it was just the four of us kids in the kitchen, Ari, Santi, Fabian, and me. That was when the tears started to come. Once Santi started to cry, I could no longer hold back the tears. It was hard saying good bye to my friends, and it was hard saying goodbye to my family. But now, it's incredibly difficult to watch as Santi has to do the same. I can't stand watching other people suffer especially when they are part of my family. Last night, I sat on my bed and cried. I cried because Santi was leaving; I cried because my family is hurting, and I just missed my American family. At school, in one of the classroom's there is a quote that says, "Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see life with a clearer view." And my eyes were throughly cleaned. And as I sat with tears streaming down my face, earbuds blaring with my Jesus music, I knew that I would be ok. God is right here walking with me everyday. He gives me more than I can handle so that I lean more on Him. And last night, I felt closer to my Savior than I ever could have in my own culture. It is what makes all this worth it. This everyday struggle has only brought me closer to my Savior. What more could I ever ask for?
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Itty Poo
9/18/2014 08:53:54 am
A great lesson...Tears are perfectly healthy - clearly you love with open arms - to loved ones and your Savior - keep being you Abbie! Thats why we love you!
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kim previti
9/19/2014 11:11:42 pm
Thank you for sharing your heart and your love for Jesus. Your confidence through faith astounds me. May God continue to shower you with strength and peace for this year in Ecudor.
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Judi and Reagan
9/21/2014 09:33:34 am
We miss you to, but are so so proud of you and your strength. You are so blessed and we are proud to know you.
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